“You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth” Kahlil Gibran

This week I’ve finally been brave enough to trial soya. And it failed because Pixie was poorly, and therefore when Elfin had nigh on identical symptoms it was impossible for us to be certain of the cause. So she didn’t necessarily fail the test, we just couldn’t be sure. There was a massive vom about 30 hours post test, but we had the same with Pixie the night before. Except hers was neon pink from the Calpol she’d just had. Yay.

I gave it a couple of days and had another go, feeling mildly confident. And I’ve ended up feeling like I’ve poisoned my baby girl. As I write on my phone she’s finally crashed out – for the night hopefully – but she’s really struggled this evening. And I’ve felt so horribly guilty. I took this photo when she finally stopped screaming, right before she went off.

There’s not been anything absolute this time, just reflux and very obvious discomfort so far. But that’s enough for me to know I won’t be eating soya for a while longer yet.







An award-nominated blogger and author, Kate is an experienced breastfeeding advocate, and expert baby sleep chaser. Her writing has appeared on Mothercare, Huff Post, and BritMums.


  1. So sorry to hear they’ve been poorly. I know it’s hard not to feel responsible but I really don’t believe you are. You are just trying to do the best by your girls xxx

    • Thanks Sweetie, I am, it’s just awful knowing it’s what I’ve eaten that’s making her feel so poorly. But at least it was out of her system again quickly – and now we know. xx

  2. Stacey - mums blind love Reply

    Oh bless. Try not to beat yourself up about it. Such a lovely capture.

  3. I can’t imagine having something like this to deal with – feeding a baby is hard enough without having to change your diet too. It must be so hard x

    • Well, there are some pretty amazing substitutes to be fair. I’m currently testing soya lecithin (still an allergen but less so than actual soya), and *if* she’s okay with that then I’ve just discovered an amazing ice cream! But yes, it’s hard, eating out is a minefield! But we do what we must, and of course she’s worth it. <3

  4. Aw no, I hope she did settle after this photo and you both got some rest. I have been following the Paleo diet recently and Ive found restricting my diet really hard, like you say especially when eating out! Luckily mines more of a choice, I cant imagine the pressure it puts you under, especially with two little ones to look after. I hope you get some answers soon xx

  5. Oh no we didn’t discover Kippers allergies until I went back to work and stopped feeding. I think we got off lightly. Hope the newer alternative is better. Xx

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